A lot of people are out celebrating. I never understood this holiday, but I’ve participated a few times.
The best was when I stood under the Eiffel Tower, five years ago. It was beautiful, fascinating, and there was such a crush of people that I felt like I never wanted to go outside again.
I was there with my two kids as I started a stint teaching abroad. They were there for school. We were there for a semester after that. Our hotel was in the 19th arrondissement, so we were a long way front the middle of town.
Crush is the only word I can come up with to describe what came next. We were crushed under the tower. We walked in a mass, crushed, over the bridge, to find a Metro station. We were so crushed in the Metro that I thought my little one would be hurt.
She still fears New Year’s Eve. My older girl says I was the only one afraid that night, but it was truly dystopian. Think “Snowpiercer.” But in a subway, crushed with people who don’t move as individuals, but as a crowd. They move you into a car. They move you out. You stand there fighting for breath while the train courses on.
Tonight I’m just hanging with myself. I built a built-in shelf, painted it, and then did some touch-up painting in the house. I’m halfway through a movie I’m liking: “Le Week-End.” It reminds me a lot of a trip I took to Paris, with a person who could have been something to me (my co-traveler), if we’d gone on.
Beyond that, I hope everyone enjoys 2015. As you’ve seen, I don’t love the night that celebrates the year’s changing, but I love the future.
I think great things will be happening this year. I’m happy for the change, and waiting for the sun to come up on an odd-numbered year.